As I sit here in the kitchen listening to the sound of the swish and swirl from the washing machine, my mind starts to wander to when I was still in secondary school.
I remembered hearing my dad mentioned that the previous washer was down and we needed a new washer urgently.
And that he subtly hinted that he hadn't had the money to get one.
Then, my elder sister stepped in and got us all a new one.
At this point, you must be wondering... where is this woman going with her post?
Well, this incident serves as a reminder to me that albeit you having the high status or authority in a household, or an organization or community, there's bound to be days where you will need to reach out for support.
No one was born onto this world to carry the weight on their own.
Babies needed their mummies to guide them through their growing years.
Children needed their peers and teachers to get them through their learning years.
Adults needed network and connections to get to where they want for their goals.
Everyone needed someone.
And this was something that I didn't understand as a child.
To me, families and friends came by easily.
Mostly because I was vocal (and very I must say) with my thoughts and I love interacting with people in general.
But there was a point in my life where I was just living by my life in solitude.
Friends who were close drifted away.
People whom I thought will stick with me through thick and thin left without a word.
Family felt like a responsibility more than a place where I can confide my problems to.
And all these were all happening because of one simple thing.
I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO COMMUNICATE WITH OTHERS.
It took me a long while to learn the art of communications again.
And I have to say, I'm not the best yet.
And... that's okay.
Everyone of us is a work in progress.
No one was and will be born perfect because that's just how the universe works.
What I know is...
I am enough
I am okay
I am loved
Despite all the negative noises that I've been feeding myself in the past 10 years, I've grown to embrace all these negativity and allowed them to be felt and forgiven.
Yes, you read that right. I forgave myself.
Only by doing so, I'm able to embrace my past and work on a better future me.
And I'm excited for me to meet me.
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