March had been happening. Literally

I honestly don't know where to start for this post.

I had made plans to blog daily to document my thoughts and days for the month of March.

And I didn't.

Not because I don't want to. But because I forgotten the joy of writing and enjoying the peace and serenity of being in my own company.

Now fast forward, it's already April and I had hardly written anything for March.

Feels like i ought to be shot in the head.

So much has happened in March... like so much...

It was the month of rebirth I would say.

Or rather a month where I started to discover what I was really born for.

And i can't really concentrate now because I ate rice and it's making me really sleepy.

For some context, I bought a glucose meter and am doing experiments on myself to see how, with certain food intake, it affects the insulin levels.

Then on top of that, see if having ketones in my body helps to cushion the insulin spike.

Data collected so far has been insightful and interesting I must say.

With how certain foods are being marketed as sugar free or low sugar when in actual fact, they spike the insulin level like crazy.

But more of this in my next blog post later.

Back to how March has been kind to me.

I had a lot of realisation. I had a lot of epiphany.

And I went into a new dating relationship with a guy.

But that relationship started feeling cold just because I chose to be who I want to be.

Is that the typical social stigma? Where when someone is not employed it means that they are not doing well?

That they will not be deemed as financially independent and capable of generating an income and hold a family together?

This is too much for my little brain to process. And I don't know why I just teared.

For no good reason. It might be the hormones that's causing it.

And that uncomfortable conversation that I'm currently having with this guy.

If I can, I'd want a closure to this soon.

Dragging doesn't help. Clarity does.

If I'm not the one he wants, then let's just have a peaceful goodbye.

Otherwise, there's no difference in whether I have him in my life or not.

Because... he's just not there.

Also, I incorporated my own company!

But this happened in April although the planning was in March.

Like it's finally getting real that I'm going to get clients to engage my service.

While at the same time work on my own e-commerce business to run it and sell so that there's another avenue of income coming in.

My mum mentioned that April is a good motnh.

So whatever I'm negotiating and working towards for, I am very sure that it will be a good outcome.

Yes. A darn good one.